the lovers
the fool
the hierophant
i realize now that you were never my sun and I am not your moon.
I am my own sun & moon
and I thank the universe for that time, for the lessons, the curious traveling, the awakenings,
I wouldn’t have loved.
it’s not about loving the right ways,
but about knowing who you are when you think you love someone.
lowering my consciousness because I do not want to see it
self-fulfilling patterns, I guess that is manifestation.
and it makes me feel like that means I’m dying, sooner or later, I just can’t ignore the fact that it’s our nature
blessed to live through it all,
¿ is that true ?
learning the shortcuts makes your life easier, knowing the long way is something that u can always pickup, optimize and spend no time-
slowing down is a different story;
you might’ve shown me, but I did not receive it then like I now have
messages delayed
time does not come back, don’t burn it out
venus venus venus
come reach and light up Pluto
the moon must be brighter than the sun…. but mine is trying to outshine the core.
not sorry for the way my sun is placed, keeping my heart after the mission, but always holding it anyway.
i am not sorry, I won’t apologize, I refuse to not say it out loud.
still, it is my choices reflecting the perfect example.
mercury strenghtening saturn.
I learn how to misbehave, and I don’t forget why I need to.
I learn to be loved loudly, and I remember that I am worthy of ease.
That no matter how desperately I’ve held on to my tragedy, I learned to let it go.
i am not ashamed of being so demanding of my wants, I negotiate my part.
balance between the elements, your vehicle, your heart, and your mind.
¿where is your wave, how does it move?
I dream of a sustainable earth, where the air is pure enough to keep the water clean, where the world wants us to exist.
this is the reality we created, I almost hope for a better one where humanity is centered.
i don’t know what we worship if it’s not the Mother.
impulses and perverted desires, because we haven’t mastered our spirituality,
planning to expect what we have gotten used to,
Breaking my heart muscles to build them back up.
I aligned my habits to heal the path towards my desires,
i also adjusted my beliefs to open the door to divine dreams;
I am seeing how sacred things really can be,
the ritual is not about the institution, unless is the one within.
ask specifically, from the root, through the heart, and allow yourself to receive.
If you see through me, ¿ would it be scarier if you knew the reasons to my reasons?,
tell me you haven’t given them some thought and figured out why I do the things I do,
I’m thinking you have,
i have seen now too, I jumped off the cage, beginning to fly.
It feels like I’m so blue yet I don’t get cold by you.
actions have consequences, it’s not a test,
an exposé
You know the kind of ways I undress, the way I speak when I start to slur my words, the gaze under the veil,
they’re like everything,
If we both have seen it now, ¿do you think that makes a difference?
Wondering what others can tell about me that I haven’t fully seen of myself,
it won’t matter anyway, I just wonder away,
Regulating my own systems, it took years to build them up to where they are,
gently moving them to a softer place, through love and not fear.
Hoping to be holding you softly and speaking with patience,
for a moment,
choosing to be present,
Forgiving for the times I’ve rushed my own nervous system to demand more from the world,
it has always been enough, it has got me for a minute, it brings me to church.
Savoring it, enjoying the ride, walking it through,
becoming a more conscious lover, growing in your garden
the energy does not lie, I feel it in my gut, my intuition heals.
Strying true to my goals, telling the truth goes beyond saying what you think,
loyalty to the sanctity of philosophical arguments.
Going to give it my all, until it breaks into a stronger home,
rearranging and renovating, while I keep on restoring the same love.