Morally aware,
practical in doctrine,
in— the submergence itself.
Erasure as politeness,
withheld and restrained,
leaving her—
Compromising her own heart,
to be able to train her mind.
Analyzing and predicting,
excellent at surviving but slow to say “enough”,
numbness as a norm.
The more she endures the cooler she mystifies,
herself as a project stuck in vasanas,
alive to think and pathologize.
Imprisoned by her consciousness,
her strength is the resilience,
the same one that keeps her compliant—
with a skewed sense of ethics.
Justice is distorted,
desensitized through her own pathos,
over forgiving and internalizing,
hardship as homework.
Harmful configurations,
say yes with a smile,
philosophical dissecting,
her inner experience bypassed,
never allow feelings to map.
Executing with intention,
to conceal and stick to shared works,
self inflicted wounding—
obedient about weaponizing,
her own internal boundaries.
Strike of tantrums: zero,
emotional breakdown test,
does not dare react if she fails—
bio leaking: inappropriate,
Machiavellian metrics.
Violent framing: unsustained,
proceed as expected,
goals remain on track.
Remember what you are serving.
Staying too long as a means of understanding,
the more exposure,
the greater chance at collecting evidence,
forgetting that the familiar
becomes easily conditioned.
Self surveilled,
revisiting and investigating,
as if spectating a third party,
structurally wired—
to be a righteous woman,
be the one who can intellectualize it.
A data center of her knowledge,
without knowing what that does her,
saturated with approaches,
not one honoring her body.
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