Unconditionally

I’m worth it,

I promise.

You don’t have to abandon me,

you dont need to close the door behind me.

You dont need to betray me and you dont need to pick anyone else.

If I find myself to be so cool and valuable,

and I know how much I’ve seen,

I respect myself and I see the worth.

Why mustn’t anyone else?

I know it is my fears.

Don’t abandon me.

But somethings must be ripped away,

the world doesn’t stop moving.
It keeps on pulling me places and taking them back.

I’m full of tears.

Triggering and opening my deep wounds.

The ones that truly broke me, shapped me, transformed me.
I desire to receive this love,

because I know how I love.

God,

girl,

you grip so deeply and it is okay.

I know what you have seen and I have felt what you have lived.

But the suffering is a compass.

Just because it happened does not mean it’s fated to be played on a loop.

Escape it.

The more you soften, God has your back.

Ego holds you by the throat because your demons refuse to let you overflow where you thrive.

But you do, and you can.

There is no need to chain yourself to a love that is not spiritually guided.

To a path that does not light.

This tightening on your chest is only fear misguided.

Take the leap, jump the gun.

You did not arrive here alone, nor was it by chance.

If their philosophy doesn’t have the range to see your architecture, it is not because it isn’t gold.

This too shall pass, those who can see you will know the gift of presence with you.

The fact that they don’t know how to deal with you, is born from their own handling of Self.

Don’t crucify yourself over that.

Killing your soul on their behalf would be a waste, they would not know.

Let life rip you away and spit you where your body rests.
Ease and mindfulness.

Trust your love and your path.

Whoever is meant to reach you, will look for a map that leads to where your heart lays.

The coolest part is you don’t need to hand this map out to those who are illiterate to it, nor do you have to teach them why reading it would make sense.
Proving nothing.

Doing nothing.

Love yourself, no evidence from the external plane will be necessary here.