uncomfortable

I love logic and rationality,

because I chase tangible answers.

I must stay still for.it to come.

I wrestle with what has not come.

I know it is uncertain today.

I wish to have the full essay.

The truth comes when I stop fishing.

I must be here without inhibitions.

I want to consume my senses away.

I know the uncomfortable will be worth the wait.

I try to escape the feelings that don’t give me immediate gratification.

Too bad, I promise October that I will sit in the shadow.

Even if uncomfortable,

even in the dark,

no matter how uncertain and unknown.
I breathe in and out.

I exhale but I remain in the rooted place,

yes, even when I am blindfolded.

8 of swords.

Maybe hung upside down.

Either way,

patiently.

No matter what I find in the wild.

I know,

I feel,

there is somewhere I will find myself,

although I am not there yet.

My eyes will slowly open.

My feet will eventually land.

My spirit will find itself.